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Tuesday, April 23, 2013


At times, we purely EXIST from the love we unconsciously have gotten from other people, meaning love that wasn't processed until it was verbally stated. And this is the type of love that should exist within our beings at all times. Why? because it helps to push us just one step further in understanding ourselves and getting rid of the bulls***! . . . the bull-ish that brings us to low, unattractive places. The outside world only sees the 'heart on our sleeves' - instantly discredit us . . . until we, ourselves find ways to 'flip the script,' if you will?

EXISTENCE is an interesting concept only for the fact that - we exist through our connections with others, how good they make us feel OR by how they don't give us what we need. I just think that love, of course has always been two-fold, or maybe '3-D' - the good, the bad, annnnnd the ugly! However, some love that we encounter enters our spirits with . . . a fight! A yes! A 'no, you're right!' 

On the contrary, existing through this 'unconscious' love is not similar to SUPPORT. I'm allowing for it to be disconnected for a minute . . . I allude support to a variable that is constant, not something 'every now and then' or from afar. This 'unconscious love existence' IS 'every now and then' and many times, from a far. 

Let's backtrack! 
This new term I'm calling unconscious love existence came about from someone verbally stating truth! What makes the love unconscious is that it 'caught you off guard,' but truly filled your spirit with a new understanding: 
I can EXIST because I felt love in a new form - I am more confident to progress . . . 

Inspired by a late night conversation with Lee Daniel and Kris Rhodes.

Monday, April 22, 2013


What's interesting about it - is that it really helps you get back to . . . YOU. Sometimes, closure is all we need to progress in our lives again. I think that when we don't have it . . . we're sort of stuck in this weird place??? The place of insecurity, uncertainty or being in between. In social situations, when  people aren't direct about their emotions or which actions to take, in regards to your connection with them - you begin to allow this situation to take over your entire being: eat, sleep, and live  . . . Their being becomes your thought process; This SHOULDN'T be!

There's always a: Direct and Indirect in any sort of relationship/friendship/encounter/situation. It's once the Direct and Indirect become . . . Direct and Direct - this is when CLOSURE is complete! A weight is lifted! There's a feeling of: "There's nothing else I can do." "It is, what it is." However, the circumstances may or may not be to your liking . . . "a happy ending." Though, just knowing what you needed to hear or what has never been said or hearing what you knew was in your head all along . . . was FINALLY established! 

Through the hurt, indifference, the disagreement - you begin to understand: 
"Their loss - not mine." 
"Everything happens for a reason." 
"People come in seasons." 
"Every day is a new day!" 
"I am, who I am and that's all I have to be!" 

My personal favorite: Everything will be okay in the end. If it's not ok - it's not the end. 
But CLOSURE is the end for one particular time in our journey, in order for an even better time coming in our lives. 

And you know that old saying: If it comes back to you . . . it's supposed to be there!

[stronger. more aware. fighting harder than before]

Wednesday, April 17, 2013


comes from being in a 'standstill' -  in search of something greater. We can't always expect for things to stay the same/have the same affects they originally had. We make choices. Our lives change. Our thoughts change . . . which means our process has to change. 

If you feel you have something of value - something worth the 'world' taking grasp of . . . hold on to that 'feeling.' Figure out a new way to help it evolve! 

"like a burning building falling to pieces in the dark - in light, new ideas filter on how to make the grounds stand on it's on . . .  again."

[stronger. more aware. fighting harder than before]

(inspired by Morgan Williams)